Stained Glass Hall

i think i know what i wanna do with the lighting...worked on this morning, and during skuntch and finished in the doctor's waiting room.

This design came from a story idea. I can't say much further, but I plan to finish up the piece to a color thumb for my portfolio.

~angi

Antagonist 01 sktch

Things have been so insane I just wanted to wrap myself up in my warm up sketch today.

The morning's thoughts were on style and how to go about creating a distinct 'look'. And it seems all roads lead to simply showing your individual interpretations of the world around you in said style. In a way, reflecting how one's mind works onto a flat surface. (please let me know your thoughts on the subject as well)

Anyways, I particularly felt inspired by the skuntchers today to do a 'tight' (for me anyways) sketch of a character in harsh profile (thoughts of Mucha and Amano dancing through my head) and finally, revisiting the creative side of my brain inspired by video game work (that middle school student doodling in religion class and awaiting the time to go home and play FFVII). Those creative concepts of unusual appearance that promise a different and new world full of sights unseen...yes that is the appeal my choice of games often hold for me...aside from a challenge (which is often easy to find for my small gamer brain, apparently) and, of course, escape.

I'm sure this sketch doesn't even come close to anything of the type, but i hope it marks the movement back to focusing on my work and it's development other than the external essential needs of everyday life... (money is an illusion, btw, I just wish the rest of the world would realize that >< !!)

I'll stop babbling now and get back to work.
~angi

Supermarket junkie

This is a character from my friend's 24hour BL comic.
it's a 'he' and 'he' has a pair of lip rings and a chain<3 i dunno I just liked her design for this character ;^^
ref-ed from: http://yoshikofuru.deviantart.com/art/i-wnt-u-102402552 (Warning: fluffy Gooshyness)

Started flamenco school yesterday, and ordered a decent but cheap pair of shoes this morning >< I'm not sure if the shoes with help, but I think practice will be even better<3
...if I can remember all the moves...and not dream of the class all over again at night!

and i called my angichan domain admin for help in getting back my FTP info so i can update that thing and add on a Devil's Cake site<333

anyways,
back to work T^T

angi

feeln' bttr

Got my focus back together and dug around till i found myself again !!
must make note to permanently weld myself together so i don't do that...

anyways, tried a hand at self caricature for today's warmup sketch.

At this starting at the bottom point of life, it's extremely tempting to 'sell out' in so many ways to try and make a living. but thank gawd it doesn't seem to work to well when i try and do that, my work does better when I'm satisfied with it with no regard or thought as to the general web community enjoying it. and they seem those pieces as a happy bonus. Now the problem is having too many projects i want to do and not enough time and energy...though I seem to be exceptionally more endowed with both than most others...

I have an overwhelming amount of things to do, and 50% of them are relevant to my future somehow...okay maybe 75%...

But some projects need to be moved up the priority list, I neglect things like SUBMISSIONS work due to so many years of training in school that other things are more urgent...and they aren't anymore. and I need to train myself out of those habits.

but ya know, family and friends have been neglected...and housework!

I'm struggling for my balance like mad.

back to juggling,
angi

Doll Maker

... I blame Dave for the style experiment. *points*

Anyways, was speaking with a customer today (yes i was working on a saturday morning >She was pointing out that it's a good idea to be self supported by a career(insurance benefits etc) so that if something happens to the loved one(s) you are depending upon, you might support yourself and any others that might be under your care.
and so the beast was brought up again. And so I had to work off that angst some how.

My mind is boggling with possible routes but no sense of what would be best much less what is actually possible. And of course how to stay true to my dreams AND make enough to be 'comfortable'. I'm not asking to be filthy rich here!

All I can do is try I suppose, and after a night's sleep I might have more practical plans of action.

so I suppose the image begs the question: Why can't we make the impossible possible?
...with a huge dose of the angst created by that question.

ever pondering (again ><)
angi